mayday~

2009-03-29T16:07:00.003+08:00

This is my 243th post and I'm turning my blog to private (: So this blog would be closed down soon and I'll start to go livejournal or wad to do up a blog.

2009-03-26T20:01:00.001+08:00

On hiatus till I finally understand what is the purpose...

2009-03-24T09:01:00.002+08:00

WOO! (: I've received OT offer letter.. but enrolment is so troublesome!

If there is any concern on why did I choose this course, is it because my results is so lousy that I have no choice but to choose this course so as to let it be my last option, I can tell you it isn't.

I think some of my close friends would know that I like this course ever since I went to NYP open house two years ago, however because it needs A level Cert and also, I didn't want to close my options that I went to JC. (:

But of course, I did apply for ntu because I'm worried that my medical checkup would not turn out right. Whether I'm applying for nus, I'm still thinking about it, though not much time left.

Anyway, my school commences on 20 april, so do ask me out sooonnn! (: I'm ending work on 31st march, which means I'm rather freeeee till 16 april. 17 is my orientation already! (:

Time to go for my medical checkup! wish me luck!

2009-03-18T19:36:00.001+08:00

I guess we are just passerbys.. As much as i would like to maintain our relationship, it just seems not easy..

2009-03-15T21:54:00.002+08:00

David Archuleta - Let's talk about Love

Sometimes I wonder, what I’d be when I grew up,

And then I remember it was anything I dreamed of, I could be a poet or a singer, or I can be a scientist,

But before I make that decision, let’s talk about my list,

Let’s talk about love, let’s talk about peace, and living in perfect harmony,

Let’s talk about hugs, and let’s talk about ways that we can share,

Let’s talk about you, let’s talk about me, let’s talk about how we can be one big family, let’s talk about love,

Sometimes i feel like, I want to give my friends a call,

To tell them what I am dreaming, and everything I want,

I want us to be a little closer, and to always reach out a hand,

To be kind to one another, and always understand,

It’s all about love, it’s all about peace, and living in perfect harmony,

It’s all about hugs, it’s all about ways that we can share, it’s all about you,

It’s all about me, it’s all about how we can be one big family, it’s all about love,

La la la la la la la. la la la la la. la la la la la la la.la la la la la.

Everybody has a heart, everybody has a smile, let’s wrap a bow around each one, and give it away once in a while… (:

2009-03-14T23:23:00.003+08:00

A very nice day spent today.

Managed to see a lot of familiar faces at ntu open house, though i guess i'm rather dao. pardon me.

After ntu house, yaoyao(i guess he gonna kill me for telling everyone his nick) and i went to bugis to catch a movie.

That movie was nice man! (: race to witch mountain. wow so exciting! (:

I was laughing all the way! I like the actors and actresses.

Haven't been so happy since the the release of result, all thanks to having yaoyao with me today.

Yesterday night was spent with lian, so long didn't get to sit down with her and eat then talk for so long!

I'm really glad to have her around.

Even though we are not always in contact, I'm happy to say that our relationship didn't really distant.

Meet up again man!

As for les, did i mia from your life? (: I didn't realise, afterall i thought we didn't really separate in terms of spiritually! HAHA (:

yang, i'm thinking of you today! I didn't see you for very very long already :(

stupid kai, you better miss me a little! HAHA

2009-03-12T21:45:00.002+08:00

It's a chapter closed, another chapter open. (:

rest assured i'm fine! loves

2009-03-01T10:16:00.003+08:00

范植伟说他宁可办丧事，好过出席喜宴，因为他喜欢看到大家的心靠在一起去哀悼去世的亲人，那种感觉很齐心。

我满赞同他的想法，虽然你失去一个至亲，但你也获得很多。

成长的过程让我学了很多，如何在一夕之间失去至亲，如何慢慢地失去至亲。这两个分别真的很不同，但却也难熬。

我知道任何事发生都有它的原因，也很认真地学会接受，但偶尔想起，心仍会被绞过一番的心情。

在这个过程中，我告诉自己要珍惜身边的人，不过我觉得说得容易做得难。

偶尔会因为脾气不好，伤害不愿伤害的人，但却控制不了自己，谁叫我是个白目鬼? 脾气一来，该说与不该说的，我都会说。

Love has to be learned,

and learned again and again;

there is no end to it.

Hate needs no instruction,

but wants only to be provoked.

--Katherine Anne Porter

2009-02-21T16:02:00.002+08:00

为什么人会喜欢人？

如何确定自己真的喜欢他？

很好的问题喔。。

thanks to my honey giving me these questions arh. hahahaha!

I will slowly think, since you never give me any deadlines. hahahaha

be prepared to hear my answers arh! (:

I wanna find extra workk! but not tuition leh, not confident enough! lolol.

meeting cousin later.. a boring day though.

last few days met boon, then yesterday met honey, tml meeting girlfriend! (:

monday meeting cousins for birthday celebration! :D

tuesday probably meeting tty and kai and others whom i'm not sure got who! hehe

haven't been able to meet others whom i havent meet man. siannn. shall find time!

2009-02-10T17:33:00.001+08:00

Today isn't a good day for me.

Aunt is hospitalised, cannot make it for dinner with my friends, shops which i want to go were closed.

why must people fall sick ? why must dear ones leave when they are old?

2009-02-03T11:44:00.002+08:00

It has been long since I've updated.

A lot of things happened between and I'm really thankful to have my friends to be with me.

In random order,

Boon: I'm really thankful to be have you with me. I know you will be there when I just sms/call you. Many thanks for you to be there for 2 days, even though you have your attachment and all that school stuffs. We didn't have much chance to talk privately though , so meet up again!

Kai: Thanks for coming down even though you only met him once and he mistook you as my boyfriend. You are a friend whom I can depend on and I know you will feel embarassed seeing this, but no matter what, thanks arh. I want to let you know that you can depend on me too. Don't bottle up all your feelings.

Les & darling: Thanks for the gifts and I really appreciate them! They are really sweet and did improve my mood. You two are really friends whom I'm happy that our friendship last. 24/7 hotline huh! My hp too (: bear it in mind.

希望你在没有痛和没有我们的地方，生活得好好的。我不是一个好的家人，当晚还对你不愿意吃饭，而对你发脾气，真是对不起，我有好好的反省了。当别人说你已经没有痛了，我们应开心的，我认为我很自私地希望你给我们多一些时间，好好地陪陪你，但时间不留人，生命总是爱玩人，你教会我很多，真的。你别担心我们。

2009-01-18T18:30:00.002+08:00

Was looking at my previous post, lets edit.

IS KELVIN WHO FORGOT TO BRING HIS BAG HOME.

and he didn't even realised when i smsed him early in the morning to ask for wenhao's number-.-

thats pretty zai!

anyway, not meeting regularly with friends, been rather preoccupied with my uncle.

woah, i finally got a one day rest after so much things, rather thankful when uncle didn't insist on going out to have a coffee or walk.

Going to get sick soon, but think recovering after a dose of cough med. haha (:

hopefully can meet up with most of my friends by march, before result release! (: loves.

2009-01-11T22:19:00.002+08:00

Oh, didn't realise that I've put that previous post here until now -.-

Maybe I was too tired that I automatically keyed in my own blogspot. lolol

No matter what, chalet was fun! (:

Although I didn't head over with them to bowling because I was too tired after sleeping for 3 hrs on friday night and having to work on a saturday morning. stayed in chalet to sleep.

I'm so glad to see most of them for bbq, i think about 30 came. didn't really count.

Saturday night was a hit man, playing some card games and I don't remember what does it call.

Most of us drank a little and some drank a lot. lolol

I think in total, we drank 30 over cans and 10 over bottles. lolol

Come to think of it, no wonder wenhao and lio totally knocked off.

AND AND AND WENHAO FORGOT TO BRING HIS BAG HOME.

lolol saw it when we were checking out. thats damn zai lah!

oh yesh, wanna know why did i sleep 3 hrs on fri?

BECAUSE I WENT TO SING K WITH KAI :D:D:D

this is the 1st time i went with her, we are damn zai lah. sang about 100 plus songs in total.

oh man, didn't get to say bye to manda, fay, zul, faiz and hermi because i was fast alsleep when they went off to take the 1st bus home!

Was glad to have yuye, des, pan, ting, qingping, ber and poon when we were checking out. lolol

went to have breakfast with them! (:

Shall meet up often with them, guess very hard to organise big group gatherings already, but then lets try and do one end of year (:

Meanwhile, will try to organise small group gathering liao (:

K session, anyone? going with ting arh and lian, ting wants you to go :D

2009-01-07T18:23:00.003+08:00

Hello! (: its me again!

Here to once again remind all of you about our class chalet and bbq.

The location would be at downtown east chalet, room 1127. ok, it sounded weird. like some hotel room!

hahaha bbq would be on 10th jan.

9th jan, whoever wanna come, please call zhen/pan/Hermi! :D

They will be at downtown ard 5pm to open the room, join us for dinner (:

We haven't think of what to do on fri night, any suggestion, dears? (:

HORROR MOVIEEEE? BOWLING??

2008-12-31T23:35:00.003+08:00

Work is fine. (: The first day of reopening is quite okay, crowd was all right, just that I'm a little lonely over there, hahaha always run to the front desk to disturb smelly huimin and cisco. hahaha

These two days are tiring and I didn't go to work today, since my uncle is discharging today.

He's growing weaker and weaker.

Oh yes, so sorry to ps joey, ying and xing, meeting them on sunday noon, then ps my j2 class night bbq too. too many things on hand and priority has to go to my uncle. (:

I hope all my sundays will be devoted to my uncle.

I don't know how long he can live and the doctor didn't say and I didn't have the courage to ask, though my dad asked me to ask.

How cruel can the answer be?

This time round, I have more time on hand. Thanks to any deities out there kind enough to give us time.

sigh, I lost my wallet, though no important documents is lost, but then.. siann.. yesterday lost 5 dollars, today lost 10plus dollars, ezlink card and ky's popular card =/ sorry, ky.

but never mind lah. like les said, bo cai dang cai! (:

For this coming year, most importantly, I'll wish for my loved ones to have good health.

Good results for A levels.

Always be positive (:

2008-12-24T16:38:00.002+08:00

Maybe if you have a lot of time on your hand, you would tend to think too much.

I think that is the case for me.

So long never contact a lot of pple, although i just met some mia idiot on Monday and ate jap for dinner at ri ben chun.

Not used to not seeing those I normally will get to see one.

Contact me if you haven't been doing so (: if not, I'll treat that my existence don't really matters.

Waiting for pple to contact me to go out for next month when I get my pay(though not a lot), hopefully there are.

Rainy days really spoil my mood, but then I love them too.

Irony.

Meeting honey and les tomorrow for simple christmas celebrations.

They are those few who really see me often this long holiday.. BE HONOURED YEAAA (:

Work is fine, except that I'm going back to original site.

Luckily there are sharon, smelly huimin, my asidiye, cisco and others to accompany me man.

If not, I gonna rot.

2008-12-19T20:30:00.002+08:00

突然很想用华文打字。
星期二，我约了我的可爱的婆婆出来，一起吃晚餐。
她每次都请我，害到我都不好意思了。
不过，还是很庆辛认识她。
昨天和一个认识我五年多的朋友，而且还蛮熟的，一起吃晚餐。
他很好笑啦！！！
一直搞到我笑到上气不接下气。
很多人都说异性不能只有单纯的友情，一定要有爱情，但我觉得我跟他有（：
和朋友偶尔的‘约会’是件很愉快的事。

工作还好，不过今天看到一个老婆婆带十种药回家，我感到很悲哀。
回到家时，有看到伯伯因痛而落下眼泪，唉。。。
希望我以后不会是这样子。

2008-12-15T20:51:00.002+08:00

Somehow I love seeing old couples coming to the clinic, hand in hand.

I wonder will I live till so old and still so in love with my ah lao LOL

That's how the old sweet ladies call their husbands. Kinda love the way they call their husbands. hahah

A happy thing to mention is that I found someone of the same birthday as me :D

We have quite a number of topics to talk about, perhaps we are the same kind of person bah.

If we are unhappy with anything, we would complain then forget about them. HAHA

These few days, both of us complaint quite a lot of things lah.

So far, my fellow colleagues are very nice lah, I didn't have to eat alone or what.

Kinda love them lahhh.

My keng jie,da jie, sharon, hui min, huishan, alice, claire, hui sei and etc.. OH YES, my ahsidiya! (:

I somehow have a lot of nicknames: bee cheng hiang, pink panther, red berry.

I think I'm a lucky chap lah, I always choose a very good working place with very good colleagues.

Counting my blessings. (:

2008-12-09T19:49:00.002+08:00

Okay, I didn't realise I was mia for so long until yy tagged =/
Currently working and everytime I reach home, I just wanna sit down and watch my tv.
Wasn't as interested as last time to use the computer, I don't know why.
During exam period, you would feel the temptation to on the computer, but now that studies have left me for eons temporarily, I do not feel the urge anymore.
Looking forward to e7 outing! (: Hopefully many are coming! hehe
Afterall, it has been two years since we last seen each other!

Went to PRSSCO concert last sunday, it was rather nice especially the prssco alumni lah! :D:D:D
Although I didn't participate, I feel proud seeing them perform! Hopefully PRSSCO alumni would survive because alumni isn't very easy to manage arh.

All right, now on my agenda will be participating outing V by iGAP (:
It has been long since I saw qinlei,qi,joyce,paul,qizhen,guangyao, and so many of them lah!
Hope to see them there man!

Oh yea, another group of friends that I've not see for very long is like my j2 class =/ haha feeling guilty because everytime they ask me out, surely got something cropped out or what. Nevertheless, see how it goes. (:

2008-11-30T21:00:00.003+08:00

These two days have been fulfilling, though I would always regret a little when I have to wake up early and go toa payoh early in the morning to attend the course.

Didn't know there are so many issues that the elderly faced, the course has certainly enriched me.

The elderly would face different issues at different stages of aged, like 60 years old, 70 years old, 80 years old. Singaporeans would lose their vision first when they are old because we are more exposed to radiation from the sun since we are at the equator, causing cataract (so wear sunglasses =p), though normally we would lose hearing first.

I think for me the most enlightening part was to sit on the wheelchair and get served by zaid, I role played the wheelchair-bounded person and zaid role played the caregiver. I wasn't supposed to talk or even move my hands. We must go down to the foodcourt to get our food. He was supposed to bring me to buy food and drinks and of course since I cannot move, he must feed me as well. But in e end we bought drinks only, because we ate in the morning and weren't hungry. Zaid ate mega muffin lo. Although he did feed me with the lychee ice that zainab and sq bought. haha zaid, be honoured to feed me arhhh HAHA I must say I'm lucky to get zaid as my partner lahh! He's experienced! see I praised u!

Anyway, back to why I think it was enlightening, I felt that it is another level of looking at people, I'm not very tall neither am I very short, then suddenly the vision gets lower and you are looking at people's chest and people are looking down to you, a sense of inferiority filled me. When Zaid pushed me into the foodcourt, those people who sat near to the entrance started looking, I think because I'm rather young then I was on the wheelchair, it wasnt a very common thing lah. I mean when the unwanted attention was put on you, it is quite embarrassed. But of course I have a fun time sitting down lah and zaid do all the pushing and buying stuffs. hoho. he must be thinking am i treating him as maid, hey zaid, be lucky to get me and not sq lo! HAHA

Sometimes we always think the the wheelchair-bounded is the most unfortunate, we tend to forget the caregiver is experiencing the similar kind of feelings, for instance, frustration. A newly wheelchair bounded person is experiencing a change, increasing reliance on family members. The caregivers, in this case family members, are facing a change too. They need to learn how to take care of the patient. They will also experience frustrations all that negative feelings. So be more considerate if you are in contact with this type of families.

There are many things that are worth mentioning for this course, too many to elaborate and too many learning points to be brought up. In this course, euthanasia was brought up too and I've always been interested in this issue.

Anyway some jokes are good to mention: Joanne's action of breast meat during the wheelchair session, wow damn funny lah! hahaha not gonna elaborate lah. Me shaking hands with the guest speaker and said hi, then stoned there and waited for him to ask me questions when he was expecting me to do what joanne they all did. Joanne,agnes,zaid,sq and zainab started laughing =/ so embarassed hahahaha! but not bad lah, i brought them laughters ok!

The next thing I gonna do after today is to find a day to drop by Anita's(one of the speakers of the course) centre, since she is a occupational therapist and I do have an interest in the healthcare sector. hahaha

OH YES, one important point that I've put in my heart is that when the elderly experienced any change in their lives, for instance a lady who has fractured her hips and now wheelchair-bounded, what is important for her is not to find new things for her to keep occupied and not continue her lifestyle, what is important is to find ways to maintain her lifestyle before she has met a mishap. for instance, she has been a house maker, she does all the household chores. After the accident, what we should do is to perhaps change the environment such that she can continue to do some household chores, perhaps lowering the cooking table, allowing her to continue cooking. We should ensure that she feels needed in the home so that she would continue to live on and continue to be happy!

Okay a long post since alevels ended (:

Friends, do volunteer and you would enjoy it like I do! appreciate qi to bring me in iGAP arh (:

Anyway met up with ahnielle yesterday, thanks for coming to tpy arh =/ paiseh to make u travelled from changi airport. hahaha! heeeeeey, meet up longer next time! I haven't talk enough :X hahaha! facial facial facial :D:D:D

2008-11-28T18:36:00.001+08:00

I did a boliao quiz lolol!

Are you Nosy?

Nosy Level: 70%

You may seem to be a nosy person to some people, but actually you are quite a serious person who's not at all interested in gossip. You just like to know what's going on around you. It's a natural interest and you can get offended when people tell you they think you're a sticky-beak.

2008-11-26T16:45:00.002+08:00

Went for a job interview today, so tired. took the data entry test, scared me when i actually failed. -.- but turned up the computing of result spoilt. duh.

Didnt go to my class outing due to miscommunication, nevertheless i think they have fun.

I wouldnt be blogging so often and im considering to close down my blog arh, since I didn't post so much. see how bahh. hahaha looking forward to have a jobb. (:

Love the way you said those suckers and it made me smiled. thanks for listening to me.

2008-11-22T21:29:00.002+08:00

I have been living quite enriching lah, for the past few days.

Anyway, I think some things have inevitably changed after a levels ended.

Maybe some attitudes have changed and I felt a little lost.

No matter what, like some of my friends said. true friends will stand.

Appreciate all those who have stood by my side, you know who you are.

Thanks! :D

Don't know why i felt emo suddenly. but its okay. when i woke up tomorrow, i'll be fine all over again.

2008-11-18T10:26:00.000+08:00

ALEVELS'S OFFICIALLY ENDED!!!

2008-11-15T15:34:00.001+08:00

最怕突然听到你的消息

最怕此生已经决心自己过

没有你

却又突然听到你的消息

from mayday's tu ran hao xiang ni..

2008-11-15T10:13:00.002+08:00

saw this from http://stickgal.blogspot.com/ introduced by audrina's blog arhh. hahah
i think they are rather good drawings from the girl.
it just reminds me pictures speak a thousand words. haha

2008-11-05T11:42:00.001+08:00

I'm sad.

sad

i asked my dad if i failed my a levels, how? he said fail then see how lo.

awww so sweet, that's my dad.

time to move on.

2008-10-20T19:14:00.001+08:00

STRESSED.

2008-10-06T09:14:00.002+08:00

Although I did say that the blog is on hiatus until my a levels is over, I have the urge to blog.
Right now I'm in sch library and i skipped gp consultation, told her that i have not prepared fully for her consultation. I wonder how she would think when she received my message.
I think I'm a weird person, because the more people tell me not to be stressed, the more I will be stressed. haha.
Okays, better not be overly stressed.
Like zhen ming said, prove to teachers that we can jump 2 grades or more! :D

Every obstacles ahead presents an opportunity to improve our condition.

2008-09-16T21:44:00.002+08:00

I'm a female and female often says the opposite.

I'm not stressed.

Time is never a pressing factor.

Shall be a thick skin to say PLEASE WISH ME ALL THE BEST ON 3rd NOV! it's my first paper!

Booking of lunch/dinner dates will be starting from 18 nov 12pm onwards! anyone? hahaha

On hiatus till alevels is over!(:

2008-09-03T23:12:00.005+08:00

Last Thursday, met out with cw and em, hahaha! so long never meet cw liao! hahaha he still as humourous as he was last time. hahaha obviously we went to k! heh never go to k with cw before, haha a brand new experience! hehe cw is really like a big brother to us. hehe i remembered there was once i was really down after co practice. haha that time was when i was Sectional Leader of Percussion! My juniors did not perform up to standard and i was really worried. when i was walking home in a very moodless style, ha! cw tapped on my shoulder from the back and said why do you walk until so lifeless? haha i can't forget his comforting voice. really. wow better not let him see this =/ hahaha im shy! :X

The day before, went to orchard's sakae :D:D:D hehehe met up with some lame person at 1st :X hahahahahahahaha my dearest honey, she was 'lamed' today =/ hahahaha! just cos her shoe was snapped. =X hmm of course met up with the very-long-time-no-see MR LKY! hahaha okays, he is also very lame, in terms of his craps. not forgetting he kept on trying to dig my past out -.- hahaha said i used 10 mins to sae my past love life, which he said is ultra SHORT -.- duh i know your love life very gd lahh//

so finally its our group photo!! hahaha honey said we definitely must remember this special day. meeting MR LKY after 2 years and we are still so close as ever. hahaha can't forget when we were in yumin alumni! haha that time we got together to gossip! hahaha =/ although its a very bad thing to gossip, its just for laugh! haha honey and mr lky , dont forget our fire turtle's date after my a levels that week! :D:D hahaha and by that time, honey and lky are working le! :D:D:D:D:D "hint hint" evil laughters! :X

2008-09-01T17:50:00.005+08:00

yooo i'm back! back from prelims. 6 more days to horror though. hahaha nevertheless, be happy! and i realised i like this kind of guys:

the one here is tang yu zhe, alright, he's my old love though! haha although not a lot of people like him, at least i never hear any of my friends say they like him. but don't you think he's super shuai! hahah. i gonna lower my standard man, as in height! haha don't need 180cm liao, 178cm will do HAHAHA! :D:D:D omg im like some feng zi. duh

i saw he run dong in feng yun! hahah he's cool!! cooLLL! hahaha don't you agree? hehehe his smile is like.. WOWOWOWOWWWWW! hahaha stop being a hua zhi! hahaa too bad school doesnt have this kind of guy for me to hua zhi. duhhhh

AHHH my latest <3!>

Tell you guys a secret, all of them are O blood! hehe same as me :D:D:D:D:D:D

2008-08-21T20:00:00.002+08:00

To my dearest sweetie cum les =D

This is specially dedicated to you! It's how amazing that I can share a lot of secrets with you when I seldom said them to other people. =) How amazing we always talked about those bgr. lolol how amazing when we weren't so close in secondary school and turned up closer in jc last year. You know I've been depending on you for support and yes, you made a difference in my life.

We might be different in some ways but i guess we made a perfect pair of les LOL how funny her mother took me as a les lahhh :X hehee but it is these little things that made up our lives. and we like the same phrase, if you feel like giving up, remember what made you hold on for so long at first. So now please remember this sentence and work hard together ok?

After prelims, we gonna take a short break and then start studying! after a levels, we gonna start finding back all the fun we have lost during this period of time! :D let's find work together!! hahahaha! then get our pay and PLAYYY SHOPPPP !!! :D

LET"S WORK HARD!!! :DD

2008-08-21T15:24:00.002+08:00

It's a race against time. A race which requires full concentration.
yet i don't have time and i don't have concentration.
Actually what's matter most is to have concentration lah.
I actually don't know how would i fare, but i know i will surely screw maths. duh

2008-08-08T14:19:00.002+08:00

你是我的眼萧煌奇

如果我能看得见
就能轻易的分辨白天黑夜
就能准确的在人群中
牵住你的手
如果我能看得见
就能驾车带你到处遨游
就能惊喜的从背后
给你一个拥抱
如果我能看得见
生命也许完全不同
可能我想要的我喜欢的我爱的
都不一样
眼前的黑不是黑
你说的白是什么白
人们说的天空蓝
是我记忆中那团白云背后的蓝天
我望向你的脸
却只能看见一片虚无
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘
忘了掀开
你是我的眼
带我领略四季的变换
你是我的眼
带我穿越拥挤的人潮
你是我的眼
带我阅读浩瀚的书海
因为你是我的眼
让我看见这世界
就在我眼前
就在我眼前
就在我眼前
眼前的黑不是黑
你说的白是什么白
人们说的天空蓝
是我记忆中那团白云背后的蓝天
我望向你的脸
却只能看见一片虚无
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘
忘了掀开
你是我的眼
带我领略四季的变换
你是我的眼
带我穿越拥挤的人潮
你是我的眼
带我阅读浩瀚的书海
因为你是我的眼
让我看见这世界
就在我眼前
你是我的眼
带我领略四季的变换
你是我的眼
带我穿越拥挤的人潮
你是我的眼
带我阅读浩瀚的书海
因为你是我的眼
让我看见这世界
就在我眼前
就在我眼前

If you know this singer, he is blind.

To me, he portrayed a great determination to be singer.

He said to him, singing is just opening up his heart and not to think so much.

I think he is nice, really.

我望向你的脸却只能看见一片虚无是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘忘了掀开

I particularly like this sentence.

It illustrates that he is blind.

In this song, it seems that he is saying that if he can see.. what he will do?

Maybe life will be different.

What if I cannot see one day? How will my life change?

Although I don't know why he is blind, perhaps when he is born, it already so.

How blessed are we, phyically fit and can have 5 senses.

He somehow reminds me of my brother.

and reminds me of treasuring what I have now.

Do not take my 5 senses granted.

Anyway time to work hard :)

Everyone jia you!

Aim for the moon, if you fall short, you will still be among the stars :D

2008-08-02T14:26:00.003+08:00

It's a long post ahead.

I came across this article =) :

Sometimes life throws us a turn. A loved one dies, someone we thought would live forever. There is a car accident, and you get hurt. Your husband or wife leaves you. You lose your job. All of these things are going to have a negative impact, and could cause you to become uninspired, feel unloved, and just have trouble even getting out of bed in the morning.

However, there's no way to prevent all these things from happening. We don't have control over other people and their lives. We can't make the world rosy all the time.

So what do you do when you get the bad news? When you can't seem to find a reason to get moving? When life doesn't seem as cheerful as it once was?

This is when you need to be motivated. Sometimes, some small words can get you going in the right direction. It can help you face reality and get back to the world of the living. You can once again become inspired.

Here are my picks for the top ten motivational phrases to get you going!

1. "Just do it." This has to be the most motivating phrase ever. Nike certainly knew what they were talking about when they coined this phrase. It's simple, it's easy, it works. Instead of thinking about it anymore, or trying to understand why the bad thing happened, just get up and do it. Just go for a run, just clean up the house, just start applying for new jobs.

2. "If at first you don't succeed, try, try again." I don't know who this phrase was written by, or first stated by, but it's been a popular one for a long time. I remember my brother wrote it on bulletin board he had in his room, to look at every day whenever life got him down. What this phrase means to me is that you should never give up, because if you keep trying, you will make t. I would be willing to imagine that hardly anyone does what they want the first time.

For example, I am a female who has been able to hit an 85 mile per hour fast pitch baseball at the batting cages. How did I do this? I didn't just walk in there and have the magic swing. I had people help me. I took it step by step. First, was I swinging too late or too early? Second, was I swinging underneath the ball or over the ball? By repositioning myself in the batter's box, and swinging at a different point in time, I was able to make contact with the ball, and the people that have seen this were a little amazed!

Had I given up after the first, second, or even fifth swing, I might never have succeeded in this goal.

3."All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them." This is a quote by Walt Disney. What this means, is that even if you are afraid to try something, go ahead and try it. If you have a dream, you have to go after it. If you want a great new job, you have to go after it. If you want a spouse, you have to go out and date people. Whatever your dream, do something working towards it, so you can make it happen.

4. "If we did all we were capable of doing, we would literally astonish ourselves," by Thomas Edison. How I see it, if we really put our minds to it, and sometimes our bodies, we really can accomplish our goal. You may think that 25 mile marathon is out of the question. But, if you really train for it, if you really take the time and effort to build up to it, you will surprise yourself and end up being able to run that 25 miles.

There are so many things we don't realize we could do. We could train ourselves not to eat junk food and to get into incredible shape. We could use more than the small fraction of our mind we usually use, and come up with a great new invention. We could get past many of our fears and overcome problems. It just takes working at it, until we see the results.

5. "Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great," by Mark Twain. He really pinpointed it. If someone else is making you feel down, then ignore it. Realize within yourself that you can do whatever you set out to achieve. Just because the exboyfriend didn't believe in you, or your jealous boss fired you, that doesn't mean you are worthless. It means they had their own problems. Now, take care of yours.

6. "Happiness depends upon ourselves," stated by Aristotle. So, you actually have to take responsibility from this point forward for making your own happiness. you can't blame your state of mind on someone else. If this isn't enough to get you motivated, I don't know what is!

7. "Great works are performed, not by strength, but by perseverance" (Samuel Johnson). In other words, keep going after your goal. Keep trying for that new job. Keep asking the girl out. Eventually, you're going to make your point and get somewhere. Sometimes, it can take an author submitting her book 100 places before she gets published and becomes a best seller. If that author had given up after one submission, where would she be today?

8. "When you shoot for the moon and you come up short, you still end up among the stars," (Les Brown, author and motivational speaker.) So, always shoot past your goals, and then when you almost reach them, you will find you in fact did reach them. For example, if you want to run 10 miles, start training to run 20 miles. You'll either end up actually running the 20 miles, or maybe you'll almost make it. But then, you've exceeded your goal of running 10 miles!

9. "And so, my fellow Americans, ask not what your country can do for you; ask what you can do for your country." (John F. Kennedy) If you're really down, stop thinking about yourself and go do something nice for someone else. It will end up making you feel better as well. This quote also means to me that it isn't always about you. If you go help others, the world will become a better place in general, and then there won't be as many people divorcing and losing their jobs.

10. "What the mind can conceive and believe, it can achieve," by Napoleon Hill, author of "Think and Grow Rich." If you come up with it and believe in it, you will be able to do it. If no one had ever had the idea to travel into space, and believe that it was possible, no one would ever have set to achieve this goal. Think about it.

Personally, i like the 8th phrase. =) aim high, even if you fall, you won't fall too hard as well. I'm like having retribution for not working hard in j1. now that it is going to prelim, to my horror, there are so much i don't know, i don't remember. Nonetheless, there is no giving up, there comes my favourite quote: "When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."

Why did you hang on so long? Is it because your family supporting you? your peers? your own ambitions. Although I am more and more unclear about my own ambition, I'll still work hard. Though some people might be saying why are you working hard blindly, I'll say "Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great,"

Come, all my dearest, please work hard! slowly, you would find yourself end up in somewhere you are satisfied with.

Yesterday was my investiture. It's a wonderful one. I didn't expect myself to stay till the end with my juniors. They are a wonderful batch. I really appreciate my dearest one & only precious junior, CLEMENT LEE POH HUI! He's a really good junior. When I reached home last night, I wanted to sms him to tell him to gambate in studies and co, but I've forgotten. =X Then I received his message at 1.20am. I know I've given him a lot of stress when he was appointed as my successor. I am proud that my one & only precious junior has become my successor, seriously. He have shown improvement last night, as he raised his voice to gather everyone. I didn't take photo for the presents I've given him, but I know he likes them a lot. I was really happy when he said that he like them a lot. I've already put the test tube on my hp, it would definitely remind me of him. I know he wouldn't read my blog, but I know he knows my expectations for him and he would definitely make it. He have shown it in his studies, i know he is working hard and as his dearest one & only precious senior, I would work hard as well. =)

2008-07-25T19:24:00.003+08:00

Many Thanks to everyone who sent me wishes via any kinds of communication tools =) I've received it and I'm thankful that I have you guys.

Many Thanks to my class who gave me a real big surprise for this special day of mine!

Many Thanks to my family who have always given me enough comfort to make me happy everyday!

It's a amazing thing how words can make such a big impact. I've read her blog and it reminded me of me going through that kind of excruciating pain 7 years ago. The pain might be a little different because we grieved for different people, as they played different roles in our lives. I think nowadays my emotions are quite unstable (maybe due to stress..), but i guess hardly anyone can see through it. Maybe like what she said, she is a great pretender. I guess I'm too. Even if the wound had already healed, the mention of it still hurts. It's like trying to tear apart the healed wound, causing it to bleed even more and it would take a even longer time to heal.

Let me wish her a speedy recovery, as what I hope for myself. I don't think time will heal everything, but there would be people, things and events causing you to be distracted from the memories he brought to you, the happiness he used to bring to you, the pain he gave you when he left you. This period of time, tears will drop. Smile will fade off. But it will pass soon. He would wish you all the best, so please do persevere on! You know after the rain, rainbow will be out. It would be a beautiful world again.

2008-07-19T11:14:00.004+08:00

wooohoo! its weekend~! ha! ytd de ytd met up with boonie to receive her birthday present and my birthday present for our ex manager! hahaha! That's my 1st birthday present of the year! ha! so guilty la, because like.. every year nv give him =/

Then Ytd met up with honey and sweetie to receive my 2nd present of the day! hahaha its nice! although i reached early and spotted them finishing up the present! HAHA oops they should know i normally wont be so late mahhhhh! OOPSSSS hehehehee

And these are my 2nd present of the year! hahaha! a photo frame and a album of photos (i dont know what to call it also) hehe or rather a memory of us being together! thats <3!>

This was nice man! hahaha afterall its made by the 2 dearest! hehehe i think they see i man man de look and kept smiling la! hahah ps i dont laugh very loudly de! LOL afterall, they decided to not to put my too unglamourest photos! HAHAHAHA

I think they were waiting for me to see my surprised face lahhh =/ hehee i was surprised ok! i didnt expect them to save this random pic lahhh. hahaha so act cute can! =X okay, i dont need to act to be cute! :D hehehehehee! they two must be puking now le lahhhh HAHAHA

Presenting my two dearest here! HAHAHA honey is so act cute lah! HAHA she gonna be soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

bhb to say i dont need to act to be cute! hahahaha oh yeah, 18th chef's student meal is quite nice! hehehee randomness.. and there i am, presenting the cert when i went to order the food and went back to sit down.. look below! hahahaha!

HAHA! I love this one man! oops haven laminate! its so nice! hahaha how wonderful to know honey for 8 years and still counting and sweetie for 5 years and still counting! hahahaha! BEST FRIEND FOREVER~ :D

Ending off with a picture of 3 of us! HAHA they are the precious of my life! =D loves!

ANYWAY HONEYY! nice swinging with you!

SWEETIE, not only one paragraph for you! but almost full post for you two lahhh! :D

RUNNINGGGG awaiting me with the accompany of honeyy~! :D

p.s Saw kai at library! PLEASE TAKE CARE :D

p.p.s though sweetie and i have the feeling of seeing someone familiar(HINT!) haha but we didnt see anyone lah!

2008-07-16T21:59:00.002+08:00

today's one of my dearest's birthday!! BOONIEEEE! :D im nice enough to post hoh!! :D so boonie, dont complain! i think it's a long time since i saw you la. miss those time we just randomly sitting at some void deck, the park near our house and other random places!

I know both of us are busy, you with your world skills and me with my a levels, let's meet up some day ok? hehe dont miss me too much too :D hehehe hope you have fulfilled your wish, whereby you wished for a simple birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY. BOONIEE! :D

never forget there's always a me to rely on whenever you face any troubles :D and of course, to share the joy you have! hope you achieve your dream! GET 1st in world skills arh!!! then can buy me present from Australia! =X hahahahaaa!

没有孤独，就不会有成功。我觉得满对的啦！不是emo,只是觉得很对，这是黄锦标师傅说的。:D 读了他的报告，蛮开心的。觉得他说得很对，也认为他很厉害啦，只有小学学历而已，但依然有他的长处。

2008-07-13T10:56:00.005+08:00

It was a pleasant surprise to see honey leaving words of encouragement on her blog for me! =) Although her post was on 6 july, if i nv remember wrongly, my memory is failing me lol! it took me long to see it! =/ It just shows that I seldom go and see blog le, online of cos got lah =/ haha

Thanks honey for all the encouragement that you have given me all along, I could still vividly remember there were a lot of time when i'm feeling troubled/sad/discouraged/angry, you were always by my side, be it online, sms or whatever, virtual or real, you were there, listening to me grumbling. I was really touched when I saw the message you left for me!! It brightened up my day and I am more motivated to study! thanks so much! <3 style="color:#ff99ff;">afterall, it's all about us gather and chat! heard from sweetie, next friday right? =) take good care of yourself till next friday ok? =D don't fall sick hoh! smiles!!!

2008-07-07T23:15:00.002+08:00

Actually today's mood was gorgeous, because I went to Sentosa today with my classmates. HJ's birthday! In the morning, we met early in the morning to do up her birthday board, which was done by the 3 of us (qiu, qi and me!) Although it was not very nicely done, all of us werent good at arts, especially me! HJ didn't know that I was joining them for breakfast, so i waited at killiney kopitiam while qiu and qi went to put balloon(a very big hello kitty balloon which wrote Birthday Princess). I thought HJ saw me man! but i just tried my luck to hide behind some bushes and took out the card and said HAPPY BIRTHDAY! she got a shock man! hahahha success!

Then went to bugis to pump some helium gas into her ballon, cos it deflated. =/ Finally reached Sentosa, planned another surprise for her, in which other classmates will turn up with cake and the rest of presents 1 or 2 hours after we reached. Another surprise for her, a bit messed up la, because qiu and i went to toilet while the other classmates are coming AND AND AND IT ACTUALLY RAINED! =/ haha nevertheless, after the rain, it was another hell lot of fun! played frisbee, i think it was the best game lah. =D

Just now happened one irritating stuff. Never mind about that! Tomorrow will be a better day!

2008-06-27T18:50:00.004+08:00

要谢卓依，不然我到现在也不知道其实我的电脑能打华文呢！
想在这里，告诉亲爱的朋友们，今年别花钱买礼物给我吧！我不想过生日。
我只需要一个祝我生日快乐的简讯即可。=]

越来越接近A水准，每个人都紧张，我亦是，请尽量体谅我，如果无法与你出门，我会尽量安排好时间。今天心情不漂亮。唉。。。物理的考试让我的心情high不起来，所以今天或几天后，如果你看到我愁眉苦脸的话，那是其中的理由，然后数学也是很大的打击。老师已经把三分之二的卷子改完了，而及格的人不超过她的五个手指，所以你说是不是一个打击呢？我相信是吧！虽不知道我到底拿到几分，但信心已减少许多了!

而我也浪费了五个小时，做了我想做的事，本来心情好多了，但今天弟弟不在家，而姐姐还没回来，我不想自己吃晚饭。好吧，是时间该把自己的心情调理好。

先苦后甜！请大家抱着一样的态度吧！我们互相鼓励吧！！！！

2008-06-18T21:10:00.003+08:00

he's my favourite kid!! =) he's ultra cute lah. u see the way he smiles, so shy. I believe that you would love him like I do, if you got the chance to know him! I'm starting to miss him right now. SIGHHH! I never knew that i gonna like kids so much. There was someone commenting that I do not like kids last time and don't know why im convinced -.- but today's service learning was a blast and i found out that i love kids!! :D

DEAREST KAIFENG, DON'T FORGET JIE JIE OKAY!!! <3

He's my second fav kid!!! u see! the way he plays the hula hoo!!! :D SO CUTEEEE!!! :D

2008-05-28T20:10:00.002+08:00

My 200th post.. =)

Your view on yourself: You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love: You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self: You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

Thanks HONEY for giving me the link :D

2008-05-25T17:08:00.002+08:00

For you, a thousand times over.

2008-05-15T21:31:00.002+08:00

Many a times, we always hope for a miracle, but in standard conditions, it does not happen. So it always us who are adaptive, need to find solutions for the dire situation we are in. We might have a lot of emotions overwhelming us. The progress of being able to control our emotions is a tiring, horrible & disgusting one, nonetheless, we need to overcome all these to become a stronger & determined person.

Anyone who want to watch Accuracy of Death, please find me yeah. I do feel like watching.

2008-05-11T19:53:00.002+08:00

It's another week passed. Like what I saw on honey's blog, she asked what's true friendship? I also pondered about this. If someday, I have some troubles, when i scroll down my phone list, who will I call? Definitely there will be close friends that I would call. But sometimes I feel that am i troubling them? Recently some small little things happen and they really make me wonder is this call friendship? true friendship? or was it because I'm of good use at that time, so they treat me good? whatever. I care about quality but not quantity.

Had a long talk with my dad last night about our relatives and stuffs. Told my sis what my dad told me. my sis said when we grow up, we will only be close to our own siblings & their family, the extended family will not be close anymore. I agreed. It can be seen quite easily though.

On a happier note, VJCO concert is a blast! I love their percussion people. =) they really put up a very cute performance. Of cos the Dizi people also played really well. the cello soloist is good too. hahhaa

2008-04-24T18:00:00.002+08:00

JC life is getting stresser and stresser as the day goes by.

One random day, my friend ended his chat with me saying that there are still 196 days to A levels, I was so stunned seeing this number. I know eventually the day will come and I wonder what kind of me will be there at the examination hall? Confident? Stress? Excited? Frustrated?

Whatever it is, I know I need to get prepared now.

I know my blog is getting mundane everyday, but just cannot help it to think about studies.

Yesterday when I finally settled down to start studying, it was 10pm. Then I look up to my 'board' at my study table, there pasted a paper, initially I did not think so much about it, then I look again, realising that it was not my handwriting. Then I looked clearly and realised that it was a target setting by my sister for me. haha

How surprising to see that, but it certainly warms my heart that my sister cares about me.

I must say I'm a very home person, even though my birthday says that I should care about my family more. hehe

You can at least see me staying home for at least one day for the weekend, you might say it's because I'm lazy to go out or what, but i guess it's the attachedness to home that I'm reluctant to go out.

But I must confess that I haven't been accompanying my uncle as often as last time. At most is that every night will wait for him to eat dinner, then I'll be shutting myself in the room.

Yesterday was not constructive studying though, because foursome(w/o xing) was conferencing. hahaha How fun to get to know them and click in such a short time! =)

They are a bunch of nice friends, hope won't break the bond between us even though we are of different schools and having different routine to follow. =)

2008-04-07T21:42:00.004+08:00

I feel that studies and cca are hard to balance this time round. Why did my balancing skills go into hibernation this year? Maybe this year, my health isn't that good. Will feel dizzy sometimes. Just like what happened today when i tried to nap for a while and in the end, slept till 5pm and try to rush to change my uniform since I was already late. In the end, I lost to tiredness. escaped from reality. Bless me with good health so that I can walk smoothly this year. It has to be my year. I know my posts are getting emo-er as time goes by. Just let me vent all my negative thoughts here and I'll be all right. I'll be back to my jovial self once I wake up from my sleep tomorrow morning.

sky of love.

2008-04-04T23:19:00.003+08:00

Sometimes everything just pushes me to the limit. I just hope there's a way out. I know no one is able to see through my thoughts. no one.

2008-03-26T21:20:00.000+08:00

tired. sad. deprived of rest. sigh or rather, deprived of stoning time.

2008-03-20T21:42:00.002+08:00

It's a nice feeling to be out yesterday after exams and today. =]

yesterday afternoon have a nice time with shimin, ahnielle, 3niniw and eitoot at ikea!

then went home and realised that i spent 14.50 altogether.

duh i gonna save a little, if not like last week no money to spend =/ hehehe

Just now went to K session with MEIHUI, EMILY and KEYANG! hahaha

5 hrs leh! though at the end of it, we are almost dead. hahaha

today keep choosing those songs i dont know how to sing -.-

then sing until super er xin -.- hahaha!

and i love singing mayday's old song! look forward to their concert now!! woooo

To that particular person ( if you know it's you, i hope you know) :

I hope you know that I'm always behind you. though the motive of wanting to dian ge for you has been spoilt, but it's okays. =] I can always dedicate to you here. erm, tell me a way that you can release your unhappiness, i'll accompany you to do =] hehehe last time, i not happy that time, i will go to pasir ris park to scream arh LOL =/ stupid thing to do though. anyway i think we can go out one day to study/relax? up to you! TAKE CARE!!

2008-03-18T16:12:00.003+08:00

I must say time passes very quickly. Imagine that i was happy at the start of last week because it's holiday, even though it is, in actual fact, a study break. because at the very next week, i'll be having Semestral Exam. And it's this week la. 2 days have passed, 3 down and 2 are finishing soon tomorrow. I would love to look forward to having meatballs with shimin, ahnielle, 3niniw and tootie tomorrow. (maybe yang and joyce) hehee.

At this very moment, I know you will question what are you doing here then. haha I got a secret to tell you..SHHHH

I SLACKED 5 HOURS.. =/

okays, lame!

TIME TO GET STARTED!

I don't wanna to screw math like what i did for physics =(

2008-03-08T22:11:00.002+08:00

I wanted to blog about something, but i got distracted when i was looking at my friendster! hahaha! It was a nice day out with boon, hehe although i only finished reading one chapter! omg omg omg! haha but ok lah, i got trust in myself to study! =] hehhe hmm we ate steamboat for 3 hours man! oh my god! hahaha we sure got fatter! =D OOPS if the weighing machine in my sch is trustable, i slim down by 5 kgs can! =/ duh! hehehee anywayy, thanks for boonie for accompanying the whole day =D

2008-03-01T13:44:00.002+08:00

It's been so long since i last posted. The pace of life is getting quicker, every week just seems to happen at a flash just like how the F1 car zoomed past me. I'm trying to learn how to be more independent though, learning how to press down that lonely feeling whenever I'm alone at break. haha give me some time and I can do it. To say the truth, I don't feel that I'm sociable at all. Anyway that's just pure randomness.

I feel a sense of achievement whenever I studied a test and I passed it. I can feel that motivation is coming back, just like how it used to be with me. I somehow find the feeling back. I can say I'm learning to love studying again, being in the room alone with the fan on, studying. Sometimes, I sms when I study too. I need to walk around whenever I feel a little sick of studying. I need a cup of water beside me, I don't know what's the reason, but it kept me going. I know when I blog to say about studying, it's a little boring, but it gonna be over after 8 months or so and then, it's a long break from study. It will be time for me to catch up with whatever thing I lost during the course of studying.

It's like what Ms Choo (my principal) said if you want to gain, there is something you bound to sacrifise. She asked What have you sacrifise? That sentence bothered me and I thought of it a few days. What have I actually sacrifise? I feel that I didn't sacrifise at all. Hence I started to ask myself what can i sacrifise? I can sacrifise the time I watch tv. Every weekday night, I watched less and less tv shows. I cannot do it at one go, because I surely cannot get used to it. I will just feel that I'm being isolated from the world. Now that I reduced my tv hours to 1 hr, which is actually the time I ate in front of the television and watch it also. I skipped my favourite show at 11pm. The past few days I slept a lot, because I was really tired. I don't know why. This make me more energetic in school(if not, my angel gonna give me a bottle of chicken essence again =/) hehehe I also sacrifised the time I'm with my friends, though sometimes it's because some friends are really busy *hint* the one who ps-ed me today -.- But I told myself that you see, at least you have been out last wk for that kbox session and then you went out with the two beloved ones out to study. tomorrow you will be going out with the two beloved ones for concert at esplanade and then study also. =] everything seems to be linked to studying, but when you are doing it with your loves, it's enjoyable =D

I just hope everyone will be as healthy as possible, it seems that many are having health problems or what. Take care, my friends. If I have not been going out with any one of you, don't be sad arh, because I miss you! I'm so thickskin -.-

2008-02-17T00:40:00.003+08:00

*hands up* Chingay.. Dream Team *clap clap.. clap clap clap*

It ends with a woohoo tonight! It's nice, I must say, however the time that we have waited at the tentage was ultra long.

I think tonight is much more better than yesterday night! The waiting time in between to wait for the other float to pass by isn't that long, unlike yesterday night.

I feel as a part of Dream Team tonight, being high and everything.

Having to tease Blackie so much yesterday night, don't know why he tonight don't wanna join us! ahem! hahahaa..

My team has a great bunch of people, I love them all!

Shall end with this,

Chen Xiao, (using 2 hands to form a heart shape at our hearts)

We love you deep down in our heart (x2)

WOOOOO! hahaha, he's our DIC for our group.

Not forgetting my GIC June, they 2 are nice!

My team just rocks! =D

2008-02-11T15:14:00.000+08:00

A cosy afternoon spent at home, the construction outside doesn't seem to affect me at all. I was supposed to follow my own schedule to do homework right now. I planned to go to library to study, but since the construction outside isn't affecting me at all, guess I'll stick to doing homework at all. Because of going out to watch Kung Fu Dunk on Wednesday, I'll have to chiong a lot of homework right now. V day is coming as well, though no guy would ask me out, my girl friends are asking me =D they are just so sweet!

A day without CCA isn't that hard to adapt to, since I have the laptop to accompany, music from yes933 and my blog to be updated for. But it's just 1 week without CCA, gotta appreciate that!

today - stay at home and do work

tuesday - stay at home and do work

wednesday - kungfudunk!! =D

thursday - visiting =]

friday - chingay preview!

Saturday - chingay!

Sunday - accompany my uncle if possible! that is possible when there are not many hw lah. =]

hehehe busy week though. i gotta be more busy next week because of maths subject test! scary scary! the following week would be physics subject test! =] and qh, take care arh =] hehehee!

2008-02-05T17:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPPYYY BIRTHDAY TANLEELIAN!!! =D

HAPPPYYY BIRTHDAY DANIELCHUNG as well =D

Allow me to stray away a while from this happy moodd.

It's just purely sucks when I put all my heart and soul into doing something I like, but finding myself ended up in nowhere. Everytime I asked myself, did I benefit from it? Am I? But I know even though I might not benefit from it, I still love what I am doing. But it's just purely sucks when I waited 2 hrs in vain and actually called out for help after I waited like close to 1 hr and received no help. That's just so much for putting my effort to do something well.

2008-02-03T21:54:00.000+08:00

It's nice to take some time to meet them =) the 1st photo was like.. pan said that he's SMILING, =/ apparently I rejected his way of smiling and forced them to take photos again! I think we took almost 10 times on the chair lorh! hehehehe! pan wasnt with us when we took our individual photo arhh! hehehe and and BUDDY, you smiled a lot today! hope you just clear your mind off that thing arh! i hope you know what am i referring to and SLEEEP peacefully! and jade, it's fun today trying to tease pan all along, cos he just don't want to talk during the time we are having our lunch! =D and jia you for exams arhs! the guys are having holiday, so we just spam them with calls and ask them out to study also can lahh..

and those who are having exams, JIAYOUUU!!!! =D

2008-01-27T21:42:00.000+08:00

today was the last day i saw ken. I met tootie to go to the wake, she said she don't want to see him cremate, i was telling her don't cry when we go and see him the last time. When we reached there, she asked me whether i want to go and see him, i asked her back. Neither of us want to see him, we don't want to see him changing to worst. We wanted to remember him at the best time of his life. however, later we went to see him for the last time with xy, nicole, mingxiu and winnie. Then we decided to go, tootie suggested to tell his dad we want to go le. What his father said finally let my tears out. He told us to study hard when we are still healthy or something along that line and not to be sad when his own eyes are red. sigh. Even I cried, how could I tell others not to be sad?

2008-01-24T21:50:00.000+08:00

Please don't read this post if you know exactly what will i type later, because I need a place to express and pen down my thoughts and I know this post would upset some of you, because when I read all other friends' post, all the emotion came rushing to me.

When the news reached me, I suppressed my emotion, though I'm not close with ken. It's just heartbreaking to hear his demise.

Ken, I hope you would see this, because I truely admired your courage to continue fighting to the last minute. Although we are acquaintances, I remembered how you smiled to me when I waved hello to Boon Kiat. You waved back sometimes also.

This was supposed to be posted on that particular day, however I just couldn't type finish.

2008-01-20T00:13:00.000+08:00

Somehow there are a lot of things i need to do, a lot of events are coming up, yet I'm here stoning, seriously I need some time concept. tell me I can, tell me I will, tell me I must. =]

chingay, cny preparation & igap. no wonder I'm a Little Miss Busy!

2008-01-18T23:02:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling guilty toward ahnielle! =( SORRY SORRY! It wasnt your fault ok~ =) so stop saying sorry~ should be me lah!

Last few days having that virus everyone is being influenced - identity crisis.

Apparently it has gotten to me a little later. It was like.. I'm in another class, then I don't feel belonging to the clique I used to be/maybe I'm still in, but kinda sigh. Don't know how to describe this kind of feeling. It's just a little sad, being left alone. Maybe I'm the one who is not doing something about it.

Then that news got to me like hell, ok I'm feeling all right, i guess not many know about it, only like.. 8 people knew about it. Didn't count my family members lah. Wait till March then, slowly many people will know, those of close proximities will know.

Read many posts and everyone seems like saying the week passes very fast, I agreed man. So many undone things to do.

I hope chingay practice won't be on 26 jan, wanna go for WAT!!!

Hopefully tml will meet boonie bah, go shop shop! =DDDD

2008-01-11T21:32:00.000+08:00

I want to thank those friends out there who are concerned about me regarding how am i adapting to my new class. I'm fine though i was lonely yesterday cos my closer friend is absent arh. Other than that, I am okay, at least I didn't feel sad or wanting to cry. I have this girl friend in my class whom I don't know why have that special bond between us that we became good friends, though haven yet that kind of sharing secrets or what(I don't even have any secret, that is) She's a excellent friend, i can say. I'm touched by her, even though she was not the one who asked me to sit with them(we have a clique), she goes very far to help me to adapt to the new class bah. =] Kept me accompanying the whole day, though she kept saying she was the one who gained from this. Hereby, saying thanks to her arh! thanks girl! =D

I realised that I've got short term memory man, after studied out with sweetie, honey and qian! =] hehehe they all arh! out there to tease me one lah! that jay chou thing is killing me lah! =/ haiyoh! honey, it's been so long since i see you arh! =D don't remember when's the last time i saw you too! hehehe! your cold jokes are making me soooo cold lah! =/ sweetie, your (1+x^2)/(x^2 + 1) = 1 is making me laugh lah! heehehhehe! she asked me how come that equation leads to 1, she don't understand! DUHHH hehehe and qian, i like lychee but doesnt mean im lychee arh! =/ LOLOLOLL!

honey: thanks so much for dedicating a part of your post to me! im touched! =] hopefully sunday can go out study again, if im not studying with yy they all, that is! heheh TERMINAL 3, I WANNA GOOOO! heheheheh! =D

to the 3 crazy person i met today: KBOX in march!!! =D

My life now is <3,>I LOVE CO & the peers around me!

Suddenly remember that i might not be able to go for WAT again =.= i joined chingay! SIGHH

2008-01-05T14:52:00.000+08:00

Was feeling a little restless this morning when my sis called me to wake up and go out to eat breakfast, rejected in the end, cos was still feeling sleepy, in e end, it became like sleep too much. =/ so now feeling tired, typed co j1 recruits list le. hehe called most of them to inform them about this coming monday's practices. left around 5 more to go. and they just refused to pick my call. =.=

Sis called me and disturbed my sleep -.- haha ok lah, not disturb lah, cos she wants to know what i wanna eat, tell her anything and she wanted to force me to say something -.- really cant think of anything, so in e end still told her anything LOL she bought porridge back in the end. hehe.

Wanted to drag boon go out together with J to drink coffee and chat, however she wants to study, aiyo, just makes me sounded so lazy cos i have yet to touch my books for today. in e end, decided not to meet J, cos a bit redundant cos we only can meet out for 2 hrs. hope that next time can go out together and chat bahs =) hehe tml will be going out with leemeijia to study, 1st time ok! hehe although dont know whether ying wanna go anot, cos she is those type who shuts up her door and study quietly one. hehe

Life has been pretty much changed, from holiday mood to a lil study mood though. hahaha. feeling a little out of place in the new class, but alina is so nice to make me feel welcome. there are also some others who makes me feel welcome as well. But like what erzi said, go jc is not go there and socialise, so im trying to tone down a little, though lesser friends, easier to concentrate in class. hehehe but sometimes, sit in the class, feel that actually the one beside me wants to talk to me, but im like that dead serious face in the class trying to listen. feel a little bad lah.

Feeling a little sad though, cos of .... i don't wanna say anyway. Hope that this year will be a fruitful one, in terms of studies! =] won't be updating so often as well! =] but at least once a week bahs! and those friends out there, don't forget to talk to me arh =] although studies is important, friends are important as well!

2007-12-31T12:11:00.000+08:00

It's the last day of the year and last Monday of the year, shall emphasize on the fact that it's the last Monday of the year, just because pan smsed me yesterday morning and said oh shit, i just remember that today is a special day. then i was like.. oh perhaps we can't go to escape with yy and hermi liao, if you got important things to do, but that was only my thought lah, i just replied how special is it ? he replied it is the last sunday of the year! I nearly fainted there liao -.- okay, that was how random pan is.

Went escape with yy, hermi and pan, just because pan had 4 free tickets on hand. hehe so we went there and have some fun seeing pan's face went pale. =/ and here to say me and yy are brave okay! heheee luckily we didn't go to haunted house, I don't wanna be the 1st one to go in cos my brother pushed me in the other time -.- hehe didn't get to sit inverter, was quite happy when in e end, pan said he go onto inverter bah, cos he don't wanna go on inverter, because he might feel uncomfortable, then we were ooohh just go lah, at most vomit =/ hehe that was what i said lah , but eventually didn't really force him liao. but there came the rain -.- irritating rain. but anyway we waited for the rain to ease, but it didn't. so we agreed to go eat instead. went to tampines mall and ate at kopitiam. hehehe. then yy was not full, me wasnt that full yet, it sounded like yy and i were guys and that two guys were not guy man! =/ hehehe no lah, cos they added extra rice to their plates! hehe hmm so we went to ice-cream hunting, eventually settled down at swensens to eat 2 scoops on basket =D hehehe it was nice lah, sat there and chatted. It was a nice gathering after all. hehehe! and and and, buddy I'm not gonna sit with you on double go kart liao -.- you made me screamed like shit =/ hahaa but it was fun lahh huh! heehe

New year resolution haven't set yet, but here must write, pan agreed to treat me if i got all As for Alevels -.- but gp OMG =/ hahah was bargaining with him for gp. LOL but aiyahs, just write here for fun and will tease him for fun about this treat HAHAA! =) and escape next time, people! =D I wanna see yy and pan scream on the inverter! i presumed me and buddy will be the brave ones up there! hehehes! =D

in 1 hour time, i'll out! miss me! =D

2007-12-26T11:12:00.000+08:00

That christmas post was blogged yesterday arhs. but for whatever reason, some html goes haywired! hahaha. so now then put up! =)

2007-12-25T11:50:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS~ hehehe =)

For whatever reason that I can't log in yesterday, thanks so much for that guest blogger at work yeahs. hehe I strongly believe that no one can guess that guest blogger though, except for those who went out with us yesterday =D hehehe Alvin and the Chipmunks is nice, the storyline is simple and sweet. The music is quite addictive arhs, i wanna watch the chinese version one!! but Singapore don't seem to offer it lehh. =(

Anyway I'm happy that many enjoyed the chalet, as I was reading some blogs writing about e7's chalet, from tootie, she said e7 has this type of bonding that glue us together, agreeable! hehe hmm I felt that it was unexpected that so many stayed overnight. If not for daisy who needs to go ubin the next morning, i guess he most probably would stay and that will probably makes the number up to 20. hehe It was sooo funny when the security guards came knocking on the door cos we were too noisy! One of the security guards was like.. It looks like there are 20 people in the room if we continue to be so noisy, all have to go home except 4 -.- hehe pan and i were like bluffing our way through saying that there are only 15 -.- hahaha Wen hao was like saying softly that there are 19 LOL hehee although we just decrease the number by 4 lahh. hehe Anyway it was so fun playing king lah, hehe although i tio a lot of times, i dont know why. having to tell the 1st time I was hurt by an opposite gender and oh no, why didnt i thought of hurt by my dad LOL hahaha hmm Another one is to tell someone of an opposite gender I admire before, who is in the rooom LOL i go and find my brother zul~ hehehehe they were like.. not counted lehh. but in e end they let me passed. OOO zul told me he likes me too =D shy shy arhh. hehehe Dare part i think i tio 4 times seh -.- one with iris dancing, they were like no kan tou, then hack care us there -.- one with yuye, singing twinkle twinkle little stars with action. next with tanglei, i must act like a guy and he acts like a girl and we take photo, not a difficult task though, i can't make it too. you all should have see what did tanglei do man -.- hahahahah he makes me laugh like shit. =/ hehe the last one was dancing social dance with pan, LOL that was super embarrassing, but we anyhow do also lahh. hahahahahaha Fun fun fun~ but aiyo, i always kanna =/ But this chalet didnt have much interactions with brother, buddy and other malay guys. aiyo it will be long until the next gathering seh. hehe but i love this class man! =DD I wan poonie to plan the next gathering~~~ hahahahaa sabo time! =D

hereby I wanna announce that I'm so honoured to have honey coming to my door and see my door plate just to send me a christmas greeting card, although she wrote my postal code wrongly, it was still sent to me =D hehehe I'm not duo pa (i dont know how to spell okays! ) hehehehe~! and and and it's 6 more days to our 8th year of friendship! =D I already told you how appreciative I'm to know you worhs. hehe and I realised that you are my closer and longer friend now worh. I remember the longest I know was Zhi Qiang since K2, but we kinda lost contact le. then Dennis, yong xiong and those i cant remember I know them since p1, but also not very close, at most say hi to them arhs. hehehe actually our classes were beside each other since p1 i guess! hahaha you were 1A and i was 1B =D hehehe sorry for forgetting you were same class with me for 2 years, because p6 was the best year I have in primary sch arhs =D hehehe

To all my friends out there, <3 frens ="">

ahboon: thanks for being there for me. that time you asked me we like to come out and just sit there stoning and talking seh, waste time arhs, hehehe but I can tell you, I just love this kind of sitting down and talk, we are always busy in our lives and hardly sit down and talk arh. hehe anyway remember our date after my a levels yeahs =D

sweetie: thanks for your card! =D you never fail to make me laugh or rather, fail to make everyone laugh arhs. hehe esp with your whoooo seee patrick can also be in and throw your patrick in the mug LOL hehe i hope that next year, even though we will be busy to mug for our studies, we can still be close yeahs =D

qin: It seems long since i met you, i remember the last time i met you was to go holland village and eat arhs. hehe next year you and i will be very busy, you with your work and i with my a levels, so remember to give me your solid support arhs =D and i give you mine! =D

tootie: haha stop you and your alcohol arhs. hahaha it's so funny to see your eyes so dreamy can! hehehe anyway next year important year le, continue to work hard yeahs. =D

zhiying dear: hehe It's amazing how we already knew each other since sec 2 lah, but we didn't keep in contact. but still, fate bought us back again =) hehe I know our date out haven't been fulfil but im yue guang zhu again -.- hahaha we will work hard next year yeahs =D

aijia: you probably won't see this lah, cos you are in U.S for holiday right now, hehehe we knew each other since p6 right? hopefully i'm not wrong, with lois and meihui forming a gang, ,then now with zhiying forming leemeijia =) hehehe you are the most practical among the 3 of us man, hehee =)

to all those having a levels next year: Let's work very very hard next year okays! loves!

2007-12-24T22:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE EVERYBODY! :D

Note: A guest blogger at work.

due to unknown circumstances in which miss bagua can't blog, i'm being kind enough to blog for her. although i don't know most of the readers of this blog, i shall just do it for the sake of having one new post for everyone else's eyes! including that of miss bagua. :D

caught alvin and the chipmunks with the percussion darls today! bagua's favourite is simon, simply because he wears specs! hahaha nooooo i like theodore more! :D

school is reopening but both of us haven't done much of the schoolwork :X attempted to study the other day, but ended up talking and freezing ourselves at the kfc. hahaha. and, it's always that hard to resist food isn't it!

last but not least, i shall end the picture with the abduction of my darling yesterday! and guess what, they did it again today!

one,two,three...PATRICK IS CUTE! :D

2007-12-20T20:35:00.000+08:00

The sweet smell is still lingering in my room, I wanna ignore it but my brother reminds me by saying what's that smell so sweet? I broke my birthday present, which is a perfume bottle the day before and the smell is still lingering there. The bottle was still 0.75 full. It just leads to realise that how much I wanna treat your presence as 0, the sight of you yesterday just reminds me how hard I tried to persuade myself and put my heart into some other places. But all in vain. I guess I'm just so easily fall in love and so easily fall out of love.

Today was perfect stoning at home, only to pack my chemistry notes into various sequences( my sis forced me to separate notes and tutorials differently which I dont think got any difference and she cleared her cupboard only to dig out all her usable books for me), then on the teevee and watch. Then off it and told my bro I need to study and he was like oh ok. Then I walked to the teevee and on it again, he was like what happen? I just tell him oh Asia Idol mah. =/ I felt so guilty that I haven't finish my chem homework, I haven't touch on physics which I need to go to tpjc.net to do some mcqs. I don't know exactly how many mcqs I need to do, but i guess I sacrifice going to igap's christmas party, meaning I must definitely be mugging at home le bahs.

At least tomorrow I'll touch my chemistry!!! hehe meeting with ylime (oh, how long did I realised this is actually reading from the back?) to national library to study, must really do some serious mugging lahh! hehe at least do finish chem so that I can pass tootie my notes to let her copy, hopefully she understands what am i writing bahh! =D

2007-12-18T10:48:00.000+08:00

listening to warlords' main song on radio. thinking of being ps-ed by my bro -.- He said he wanna sponsor my sis and me for the movie, so we waited for him to come and buy the tickets. never wait too long though, cos since the movie has already started so we went home, found him with a guilty look because he felt asleep. =.= then he said why didnt we call him -.- the problem is his hp is off-ed. -.- and my dad is sick and i refused to call the house phone for too long, so it was a short toooooo tooooo then i hung up =/ hahahaha too bad the rating is NC16, if not i can drag my younger bro to watch. duhhh.

hopefully can go watch alvin and the chipmunks soon with honey and sweetie though. =) hehehe

this saturday and sunday- chalet~ =)

Anyway I'm irritated -.- because I think I have been changed to another class -.- Most probably S18. Because I couldn't find my subject combination anymore. sigh. I cant find GS (General Studies in Chinese) at all, when all the other people in my GS class have this GS in their timetable. but no one from the sch has call me about this -.- I know if i change class, the timetable is better and i can study better. but but but grow attached to the class. suddenly change another environment also a bit scary. furthermore i dont know the class right, has what teachers teaching them. what if the teachers arent any better than my current teachers? not saying that my current teachers are bad lahh. the only teacher i know is the home teacher(chem teacher also) but she dont know me lahhh. =(

2007-12-16T17:33:00.000+08:00

Now I'm listening to mayday's lian ai ing on radio. Realised that I haven't been updating my blog, actually nothing much happens, it's just some random meeting-ups with friends, slacking at home and thinking of how to ask some close friends out, because I haven't been catching up with them. BUT BUT BUT I haven't start doing my holiday homeworks =/ This saturday and sunday have chalet, so i doubt can ask them out bahhh. and also there is a wild wild wet outing this sunday, i wonder how to arrange time. tsktsk. anyway waiting for tml, so that I can start to use my hp to sms arhhh~ =D

anyway shall end this short post with

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YANGYANG~ =D

2007-12-09T14:18:00.000+08:00

Yesterday at neo's wedding was super touching, know I won't have chance to get married in a church lah, but it was memorable to be there to view a church wedding.

After that, went to tm to watch enchanted with yy, ting, matt and kion. Enchanted was like a musical. It was quite fun lah. another new experience. It's like I never have been with those peeps to movie. It was kinda awkward at first at the foodcourt after we have finished watching movie. hehe but the walk back home to the bus stop near kion's house where yy and matt took bus from there. We have a rather nice chat there. Then walked kion home to the lift, then took bus back to near my house there, was drizzling arhs. walking wtih erzi and chatted. and now that i realised erzi, you never sms me when you reached home arhs! LOL ok random~

2007-12-07T19:22:00.000+08:00

I've been neglecting my blog, i guess. It was like.. i guest blog at kai's blog, busy thinking of what to write for her, not saying that I'm blaming her lah, because I kinda enjoyed guest blogging. If anyone likes the way I guestblog at kai's blog, can ask me to blog on your blog if you are away on an overseas trip or something like that? hehe

Tomorrow is the day I'm having headache about. Mr Neo's wedding. Oh my goodness. I don't want what to wear, however I'm kinda excited also lah. It is the first church wedding I'm attending. But can let me know what should I wear? haiyo.

Anyway I realised I haven walk in the rain w/o umbrella this year, as in those slow slow walk. I wanna do that before year endd =D

2007-12-04T12:10:00.000+08:00

what a slacking day~ just woke up not long ago. and I'm still yawning right now, okay guess I slept too much. Later will go to prssco bbq at changi aloha arhhh. hehe and it will be a nice night, i guess. Back to having percussion backk. Thinking of the slacking moments with mh, em and dan. and and and that idiotic dan! how can you threaten us that if em don't go, you will not go~ okays, i smell some fishyness. LOL

someone, just please ask me out to go study? i need that~ I can't study at home~

The missing piece will just come out itself, just like the solution to everything. I gladly accept that missing piece when it comes out.

2007-12-03T00:25:00.000+08:00

My blog is getting emo-er, because there is not much things to happy about, except that i saw and waved to a friend whom I've been longing to see. I went to bugis with ronale and tpjcco peeps, so as to eat vegetarian food. It served as a farewell lunch for ronale, as he is going into NS soon on 15 Dec. After that, I got a bit carried away and then I was late for meeting e7 peeps at Tampines Mall Mac. I smsed Ting on the way and told him to check out anyone's there. He said he is not going down, as Des is already at his house. So I was quite worried that I would make e7 peeps wait there for me, then I held on to my hp and waiting for any calls or what to ask where am i. Nothing came in. I got that idiotic feeling that no one turn up. Then this came true. My guilt vanished immediately. I reached TM mac close to 2.15pm, then walked around and see see see seeeee for 10 mins. Stood there like an idiot waiting. No familiar face. then i told Ting no one there. He said k.. Expected.. Come den. Why did I still hold on to that belief that someone actually will turn up. when that truth just hits me on my face. I don't blame those who have already said that they will not be there, but how about those who knows there is such puzzle-making day.
Des and Ting have started doing when i reached. We do do do do do , then Nic came. DO DOD DO DO DO DO DO. break. then Han Yong came. DODODODODODODOD. Kai came. Then Nic left. When we finished the puzzle at 10.45pm, no tinge of satisfaction for me at all. But I still thank Des, Ting, Han Yong, Nic and Kai for doing together that 1000 pieces puzzle. Also, must thank Ting's Mum for her spaghetti, food and everything.

8hrs 45 mins. our effort.

2007-11-30T23:16:00.000+08:00

Just reached home.

Finally finished buying neo's present. I don't have any picture for the puzzle.

but i'll be looking forward to do the puzzle with the other peeps.

And i got cheated -.- in the end, starved myself all the way until 10 plus.

Luckily I ate at 3 plus. If not, I'll be knocked off like Tootie =/

2007-11-29T14:30:00.000+08:00

I must constantly remind myself that when people hide something from me, they meant well. But it is hard because I'll be thinking more and more. I was thinking hard why sometimes, people hide things to me. Sometimes it is just to salvage the impressions of some other people they are trying to protect. Sometimes it is just trying not to make me think negatively. But it just proves redundant. Because making wild guesses are worst than letting me know the truth. There will be hundreds of guesses in my mind and each guess would lead to other guesses. It is just not going to end.

2007-11-25T15:27:00.000+08:00

It's just dissappointing. cos of several things, but nvm.
Anyway Shi Hao is flying off to US to study for 6 years and Tang Lei is leaving soon in Jan.
It's so utterly crazy with them keep flying off after the departure of Yu Zheng in sec 3.
It's just sooo sad to see people off at airport with the chance of not having to see them back in the arrival hall at the same place.
soo i didn't go and send shi hao off. but nvm bah, still can contact through msn.

And im sick -.-

2007-11-21T13:16:00.000+08:00

tsktsk. woke up in the middle of the night, i wonder is it cos im getting paranoid -.- past few days kept on waking up at 5 plus. maybe im just getting paranoid about waking up for work. aiyo. anywayy woke up and found out that my voice has gone -.- but ok lah. now getting better. ps-ed ai ai =/ actually going out to pasir ris park today de. sigh. next monday ai ai is going off for her holiday le, lesser chance of going out le. wanna learn roller blading arh, anyone pro wanna teach me ? =) hehee im tempted to go pasir ris parkk leeehh. anyway on a happier note, ying and tootie are coming back this friday =DDD anywayy tonight going out for dinner with e7 peeps, cos shi hao is flying off to US (i think) to study there for 6 years. I won't be able to send him off tomorrow, so ask him out with some other friends to sort of meet up and chat with him bahs. [:

2007-11-19T14:48:00.000+08:00

time to update about yesterday night yeah

hehe met ah boon last night. She wants to show me her new hairstyle

and she wants me to say that she's a da mei ren yeahs =/

hahahahas! i leave it to my audience to comment. duh

camwhore for a little while arhs =) hehee

blogger fails to load my video!!! hahaha

but it's ok lahh.

too cute to be seen on blog arhs!

anyway a rare sight that im willing to take off my spect to take photo lahh

i must be crazy somehow to lend boon my spect HAHAS! =)

2007-11-18T18:19:00.000+08:00

Sorry if I didn't reply your sms sometimes, maybe it's cos i forget, maybe it's cos my smses are over. now i know how it feels

2007-11-15T16:44:00.000+08:00

I'm watching full house, hmm reached the 10th disc le.
hehe so proud of myself. but my feeling after watching the 10th disc is..

Would there be a chance again for you and me to be under the moon, with ice cream and on the swings to chat again? =)

2007-11-09T21:22:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I just felt disenchanted.

It seems that the ones who are closer to me are leaving slowly from me.

I hope I can convince myself that everyone's just walking in different directions and we will soon meet at a certain point in time.

Let's just treat that I'm just spouting rubbish right now.

2007-11-09T20:34:00.000+08:00

Shall end this post with a zilian photo of tootie =/

duh she SELDOM zilian one! and she took my hp and zilian!

and she only struggled once to take back my hp and delete it =/

hahaha so im supposed she WONT kill me if she sees this! hahaa

and she said she gonna be bombed in laos. so i think my life wouldnt be in danger! =)

2007-11-08T22:37:00.000+08:00

I wanna die uploading the photos in here -.-
Blogger just refused to upload my pictures for steamboat
ok, I went to eat steamboat yesterday with tootie, lian, yang and jade =)
hehehes feel like posting pictures, cos they speak more words than me lahh. =/
ok, pictures next time =)
AND I SO WANTED TO POST THE ZI LIAN PHOTO OF TOOTIE HERE LAHH.
ok, tootie actually took my hp and zilian!!!!! 1 in 10000000000000000000000000000..(the zero carries on) years. hehes nvm next time!

today went to kboxing with my leemeijia =) hehes
it has been long since i went out with them, though we everyday hang around in school lah.
but the feelings are different when we just wear home clothes and go out shop =)
kboxing is quite fun lah. hehes me and ying just purposely sang so loud, just cos the next room was copying our songs =/
hehehes! we sing then they sing -.- irritating. hehes.
okays, shaaall go out with them every month! that's the promise yeahhh! =)
pictures next time tooo~

and i cant go gygh =( cos i got work. =/ siannn.

2007-11-06T00:52:00.000+08:00

I just finished my op and it's quite alright lahh. One of the assessors is a gp tutor and I always thought he's nice, he does look pleasant to me, but woooah. looks are deceiving lah. the questions he posted to others were like... woahh i don't know how to answer if i were to be the one standing there. But the questions he gave me it's like.. rather expectable, even though i didn't really prepare. I must admit that I'm that lazy lah. I was the 1st speaker, introducing my groundbreaker, reasons why we have chosen him, objectives and touched on a bit on debate. =) He asked me..

'You have mentioned about William Shakespeare's contributions to the English Language, Literature and Modern Theatre, which do you think is the most significant contribution that Shakespeare has done?'

'I feel that he contributed most significantly to the English Language. Because ermmm. in today's world. Let's say about school context instead. We uses English in our daily life.. lives and also, most subjects are teach in English, hence i think that English language is the most significant contribution'

'That's an interesting answer. But you must admit that Shakespeare is well known for his plays and dramas instead. So why did you think it is English Language, but not plays and dramas?'

'Yes, but personally, my English isn't that good, so when i researched on Shakespeare and I came across websites that say Shakespeare is the Father of English Language and I was amazed. Hence I felt that Shakespeare's contributions to English Language is most significant.'

'Yes, I do agree that Shakespeare is the Father of English Language, as he has created many many phrases via his plays and dramas. Okay hahaha, I'm a Shakespearean fan too. I taught literature when I was younger! Thank you for your answer'

'Thank you'

Then they asked us to vacate the room for them to discuss after Q & A. My friend told me that I seem to impress the gp tutor, i so feel like dying duh. cos I was regrettimg why didn't I prepare beforehand, but of course, that feeling doesn't last till I was back with my friend after going toilet. You know, the assessors were like.. listening so hard seh. It makes me feel that I didn't speak clearly or so. =/ Then have to console myself that they were so interested with it -.- and also, we are lucky to have a gp tutor who is so interested in Shakespeare. DUH. it does have effects or whatsoever lahh. Hopefully, men do give more marks than ladies =) Since both assessors are guy. Let me have some trust in guys bah!

I'm just merely aiming a B for project work, since I saw the past history of my school. Better don't get a C and below or else I'll just die.

I didn't have that feeling of WOAH I FINALLY FINISHED PW. In fact, I felt a bit lost. Perhaps I did have some fun time with my team, even though my group is peaceful. Peaceful in the sense that we don't quarrel and etc, perhaps we are all just gentle animals who just swallowed all the unhappiness and forgot it the next day. I can admit that my group do have some unhappiness sometimes, but we never try and make things big, we just try and compromise. To say the truth, I wasn't the group leader, but in the end they all regarded me as the leader, as jas was on a break due to operation and at that time, I took up her role to initiate meetings and so on, so in the end, I eventually just became the one who initiates meeting and etc. Sometimes do feel that my group isnt have a lot of fun doing project, just quite systematic, perhaps having me as leader, didn't bring out that dynamic factor from each and everyone of them. but still thanks so much for being around when I need you all to do work, sometimes my temper isn't that good.

Jas: Maybe sometimes you didn't feel right with us, cos you weren't very close to us, as you have been missing for close to 1 month. But I think it's quite alright now, because you're not a difficult person to get along with. No doubt that one month has created a gap between you and us, but I believe it wasn't that difficult to bond with us right? And I felt so lame when we both said we are excited for op today, because later on, we two felt so nervous. =/ but guess, we are quite ok lahh hoh!

Jon: I was harshed with you once, really harshed. I think you were quite shocked to hear me being sacarstic. But being the forgiving type, you didn't mention a word about it and continue being very nice with me. I meant I enjoyed the time talking with you, even though sometimes quite no strength to hear you say 'you do it, I very lazy' haha! I think you always say this sentence =) Here to compliment you, you're always punctual for all meetings, can't find a time that you were late, perhaps late by that few minutes because you were in the bus behind my bus. duh But i was late as well. =/

Sya: You know, your laughters will bright my day, because of the lame jokes you cracked with jon, it's making laughed till don't know what. It's like jon will sing something like 'you not gonna find someone as hot as me' and you were like HAHAHAA. jon is a joker lah, even though sometimes he crack dirty jokes. duh. keep putting his hands in front of his chest, showing that shape and sing that song. that's erm irritating! haha Actually I never did see jon like that before, i guess it's only with you lah, cos he's much closer to you, i think =)

To my pw mates: You know you guys have been great! =) I so feel like crying when I saw the pointers being displaced and I don't know what's wrong with it, and it's like.. HAPPENED IN ACTUAL OP. and I was the last one who did the checking of the slides and I failed to notice it. I wanted to say sorry to you all and I can't remember if I really did. I got that vague memory that I told jas and sya. and you two said, never mind it's over! =) Thanks so much yeahs. With my easily-annoyed temper, you all really have been nice to me! and so sorry to screw a part of the presentation! I don't know if you all will get to read this, but I guess you all will receive an online message from me arhh =) hehee~

2007-11-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

Reliance is a good thing or a bad thing? I wonder.

Your tertiary purpose is to meet me out for lunch =p

I think you gonna say me lame =/

AND YESS. HENG PEIBOON, DUH. PS PS PS ! LOL

and i must be lame , as all the messages are for different people. lol

okays, time to update bahs =) next post yeah

2007-11-01T01:53:00.000+08:00

I'm blogging in blue, because I'm simply feeling down.

Although I talked to 2 teachers and 2 close friends and of course my sister, I'm still indecisive.

In the morning, I talked to my physics teacher for half an hour or so.

Then after have a fun time at sweetie's house, back home, called my bio teacher.

Talked to her for approximately 1hr30mins and went out for dinner.

When i reached home, Tootie called and spoke to me approximately 15 mins.

At that time, I was almost certain to drop one subject.

Then I called lei for close to 2 hours.

Back to square 1.

Now that Son is talking to me online and he said drop bio.

Cos both bio and chem need memory work.

oh yes, thanks the 6 of them who have given me advices arh.

I'll try and figure it out alone. and thanks yang for encouraging yeah.

At the end of the day, I'll still have to make a decision, so I shouldn't let it bother me too much.

Afterall, like most of them have said you utimately still have to study, why worry so much?

2007-10-31T02:13:00.000+08:00

I might have to drop a subject.

I don't quite know what to do. Other than my sister, I actually told one person whom i met today, I was somehow expecting this person to ask me why and advise me what to do, but this person didn't, so i didn't know how to continue this topic and change to other topics instead.

In this middle of the night, I told this particular person whom I didn't expect I would tell, nonetheless I told this particular person and this particular person advised me not to make the wrong choice such that I would regret and said me slacked too much =/

Sometimes just feel that even though this particular friend might not be the closest friend of mine, but offer the right help at the right time. =) Thanks so much!

Tough time tomorrow, but maybe not as tough as I thought.

2007-10-28T20:34:00.000+08:00

Just came home arhs =)

hehes and today i observed a scene in the bus.

a grandma went up the bus and another ah ma sat at the outer side of the seat, and that grandma said 'ah ma, i want to sit'

I thought to myself that if i were to be that grandma, how would i address that ah ma =/

haha i know im rather random lahh

and i got a scare today -.-

my relatives and us were at the supermarket, when my cousins and i were seeing the frogs right, alive one arhs. my cousin dared me to take up and i of cos dont care lahh! =/

hehes and he said he never try taking it up too, then he took it. and took many other frogs.

There was once dont know who encourage me to touch arhs, then i tried touching the one which my cousin was holding on, then he suddenly moved that frog nearer to me and i got scared and screamed -.- then became to hit him uncontrollably -.- WAH LAUUU WEII~ unglam -.-

2007-10-25T18:00:00.000+08:00

It has been long since i updated =)

and i shall update cos my friends are making noises ! HAHAHA

on a happier note, school is officially ending tomorrow.

and i'm not gonna going to sch tml =/ hahahas!

OP is coming soon and I think I'm getting better, however that Q & A section is gonna kill me man!

How can a teacher ask a question out of nowhere!!! =/

and i just screwed up my part just now. hahas!

Anyway, next week got 4 days to practise!! wooooo~ or i shall ask them to come out during weekend? =/

ok, that's more evil. maybe i should ask them whether they want a break on tuesday, then saturday come out and practise? =/ hehes

later gonna meet boon for dinner. hehe not very long since i see her and not very long to the time i will see her, which is this saturday. but still promise her to meet her, since she wants buy a new pair of shoes =)

update another time~~

hehehs!

2007-10-17T23:12:00.000+08:00

Don't ask me anything if I don't smile. Thanks.
and result is just one part of it and it don't really matters a lot. because i should be able to promote. wait till next tuesday.

2007-10-15T00:12:00.000+08:00

hehe just came home after meeting leijie for like.. a short 30 mins (:

she gave me a chocolate from korea, made from cactus arhh. hehe

never eat before, shall try it tml and my pimples will pop out again =/

here 2 pictures of it arhh :

front part of it arhh! =]

the back of it (:

hehe have a nice chat with her arhh. being long time since i chatted with her bahh. heheh

and she tml still has work =/
okays, it's sarcasm lahhh~ because i doesnt have sch. hehes.
just a quick update for today bahs.
went to bugis to walk around with my uncle, siblings and cousins arhhs.
haha it's like.. seeing my cousins for 2 straight dayss. duh.
feel so weird. haha seldom go with them one =/
but anyway some pictures =]

okays, he looked so innocent =/ hahahahahas! this was taken by my brother worhhs.and he took when my cousin doesnt even noe it =/ guess his photo taking skills are much better than mine. okays i did play a part in distracting him lahhh! =/

this was taken by me though. a bit hmm. ugly lahh =/

dont know what was he doing. duh. this was when we were going back to tamp arhhs. =]

I've being eating and eating and eating lahh.

=/ guess i better eat lesser back in sch bahhs =)

and this is taken from my cousin' s house arhh, which i went yesterday ar =]

hehehes being a long time since i go their house too. =)

and last day of freedom tml =/

2007-10-12T13:02:00.000+08:00

hmm ston-ning now =/

I thought I'll be going out for 2 hrs for something, but in the end, my fren didnt sms me what time and where are we meeting -.- so i guess I'll just give it a miss.

Hmm, maybe later will meet peiboon to go ikea and ntuc to buy things bahh. hehes

then after that, might eat dinner with her arhh. miss that girl already. her crappiness =/

I would be going to my cousin's house since my uncle felt like going [=

and then sunday would be going to chinatown with my uncle and siblings bahh. hehes

Monday, most likely would be going out with leemeijia =) hahahas.

dont really know where they are going bahhs. hehes wait for more details from lee arhs =]

hmm CO would be starting soon bahh, hehe time to take up my responsibility le.

I think next on should be CO exco meeting and result-taking le bahhs.

just heard from my fren in mjc that they have already gotten their results le.

came across to see my [B.nB] bro's result on his blog arhs. think his result is quite okays lah. I believe. =] then now it's time to think of what will be my result =x siann.

If i suddenly call and cry, there must be something wrong =/

hehes.

2007-10-12T00:07:00.000+08:00

hehe this was taken a long time ago arhhh.. =)

it was when Meihui and I have had long hair.. =]

and here to declare that tanmeihui has cut short hair, just like me~

hehehes! i love my honey anywayyy =DDD

I love her short hair sehhhh! =DDD

hehehe same style as me worhhh..

but now my hair longer liaoo. =/

hahaha and my honey & sweetie said my hair grows very fast. haah!

and this is my sweetie =DDD

hehehehes. her birthday is coming sooon worhhh~ =)))

Happy Advanced Birthdayyy! =DDD

She arhs, never try short hair before, though i saw before lahh. =/

cut the same hair style as us lahhhh! =DDDD

and we went to kbox todayyy!

I love the stars arhhh! nice right? hehehes

and today's kboxing started with mayday's song 'jump'

then ended with mayday's song 'wang ci'

heheh and i shall end this post with the group pic =DDDD hahahahas..

Oh yeahhhh! my uncle is being discharged, decided to stay at home and accompany him for the weekend, so sigh, ps-ed igapianss for their kbox session arhhh. feel so ermmm. guilty. =/

2007-10-09T13:08:00.000+08:00

I never wanted it to turn up this way,

I hope you understand.

It's not your fault. trust me =)

We are forever friends.

After my promos, we will go out someday ok?

I hope you know this post is for you.

2007-10-07T14:50:00.000+08:00

This is some random post (: hehe both taken by me =) anyway I love taking other people's photos (=

2007-10-07T03:38:00.000+08:00

suddenly feeling very tired.

perhaps this few days running in and out of the hospital and juggling with last min studying are draining me out.

The remaining papers are those that i do not have confidence, but I'll still be doing revision (:

step by step bahh

I didn't reply one of my frens today. Think I'm kind of trying to avoid this fren lately. Perhaps perhaps. I'll reply tomorrow bahh. thinking of some lame excuses why didnt i reply =/ Just now was chatting with one of my close frens abt this relationship thingy. I said i haven't been touching all these almost 2 years and this close fren of mine said better wait till after my A levels then think about all these bahh. guess I'm being influenced to be emo-ed today.

and bed bugs are back in the flat i painted. sigh.

2007-09-30T17:43:00.000+08:00

yesterday was pcp~ hahah being anticpating for this day. it was rather satisfacting lah, to see the wall changing from green to white colour. the whole flat was full of my voice duh~ hehe den gossiped too loud with andee liao and let shane uncle and amelia heard them =/ AIYOO~ hehehes. im so glad that im in their team ( shane, amelia, marcus and chengyi) and andee and jason came in to help~ hehe love all of them! hahaha though they could find me noisy(erps) but i rather hear them saying me lovable arhhh~ hahahah! many small little things happened arhhh. haha overall, the experience is great! =DDD

after that still went to play bb with pc, pb, zaid, my dear les partner ann and jh arhhh. hehehes! we WON ok! hahaha even though 4v2 lahhh.. and J, call me meinu shifu arhhh! =DDD the whole life ok!! =D hahahahahas!

hmmm after that we went off to eat~ (me, les partner, boon, J, red rice container, jh, serene, hermi and jl) hahaha jl is like.. blushing all the way lahhhh! =/ yt is not bad de! jia you wooorhhhh! hahaha lucky he was there, if not i sure kanna de! hahahahas =DDD dinner is funn!

hehehes =DD i love this dayy~ =))

girl dearie, you're sweet~