Saturday, March 01, 2008
It's been so long since i last posted. The pace of life is getting quicker, every week just seems to happen at a flash just like how the F1 car zoomed past me. I'm trying to learn how to be more independent though, learning how to press down that lonely feeling whenever I'm alone at break. haha give me some time and I can do it. To say the truth, I don't feel that I'm sociable at all. Anyway that's just pure randomness.
I feel a sense of achievement whenever I studied a test and I passed it. I can feel that motivation is coming back, just like how it used to be with me. I somehow find the feeling back. I can say I'm learning to love studying again, being in the room alone with the fan on, studying. Sometimes, I sms when I study too. I need to walk around whenever I feel a little sick of studying. I need a cup of water beside me, I don't know what's the reason, but it kept me going. I know when I blog to say about studying, it's a little boring, but it gonna be over after 8 months or so and then, it's a long break from study. It will be time for me to catch up with whatever thing I lost during the course of studying.
It's like what Ms Choo (my principal) said if you want to gain, there is something you bound to sacrifise. She asked What have you sacrifise? That sentence bothered me and I thought of it a few days. What have I actually sacrifise? I feel that I didn't sacrifise at all. Hence I started to ask myself what can i sacrifise? I can sacrifise the time I watch tv. Every weekday night, I watched less and less tv shows. I cannot do it at one go, because I surely cannot get used to it. I will just feel that I'm being isolated from the world. Now that I reduced my tv hours to 1 hr, which is actually the time I ate in front of the television and watch it also. I skipped my favourite show at 11pm. The past few days I slept a lot, because I was really tired. I don't know why. This make me more energetic in school(if not, my angel gonna give me a bottle of chicken essence again =/) hehehe I also sacrifised the time I'm with my friends, though sometimes it's because some friends are really busy *hint* the one who ps-ed me today -.- But I told myself that you see, at least you have been out last wk for that kbox session and then you went out with the two beloved ones out to study. tomorrow you will be going out with the two beloved ones for concert at esplanade and then study also. =] everything seems to be linked to studying, but when you are doing it with your loves, it's enjoyable =D
I just hope everyone will be as healthy as possible, it seems that many are having health problems or what. Take care, my friends. If I have not been going out with any one of you, don't be sad arh, because I miss you! I'm so thickskin -.-
Vented by lazygirlx
3/01/2008 01:44:00 PM